superheroes 11.04.02

 

STEPS TO BECOMING YOUR OWN SUPERHERO

By Yours Truly

1) Get off the fuck off the internet.

2) Purchase a "Best of the 80s" compilation. Pick the worst track and make it your theme-song. Don't choose song titles which end with question marks. If it has an explanation mark, you've gone gold.

3) Pick a name. Think of a barnyard animal or lunchmeat and of course, suffix it with "man", "boy", "girl", "woman"... or better yet, "child."

4) Review your childhood Halloween costumes. While you're drawing, decide which two you would never think to wear again and encorporate elements of both into the design.

5) Do you have hair on your knuckles, buttocks, nipples, public region or feet? If so, wax accordingly.

6) Walk through the cereal aisle at the grocery store. Scan the highest shelves and pick a brand without "special prizes inside."

7) Find your worst picture from junior high and tape to the box. Write in blank space of the box: "SPECIAL PRIZES ARE FOR LOSERS!" with a sharpie. Find four items on the floor. By the way, hairballs and used condoms count.

8) Find a mirror and get naked. Use the sharpie again and write: "THIS MIRROR IS GONNA COME!"

9) Take your drawing from step four and hit the street.

10) Stay naked.

 

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I heard a story on radio the other day about one woman's lifelong pursuit to become a superhero. When she was eight years old, she started a list of things she would actively pursue to earn superpowers. As she grew older and it became clear that she'd never inherit the ability to fly or shoot laserbeams from her eyes, she would use the list as a metaphorical reference. By the time she hit twenty-one, she had, indeed, covered most of the items of the list. And yet, instead of celebrating or even recognizing the achievement for what it was, she became preoccupied with the remaining items. Eventually, this finicky obsession grew into a classic Neil Armstrong-complex. She locked her bedroom door for two months, turning paralyzed, idle and slovenly in her own pile of shit. This is precisely what I am afraid of.

Above my doorknob are the lyrics to David Bowie's Golden Years: "Don't let me hear you say life's taking you nowhere..." but I'm full of hypocrises. Last Saturday night, I parked myself on a rocking chair, reading Rilke with a bottle of rum. Still, when I say that I don't intend to live past the age of twenty-seven, this is, by no means, a product of sloppy sarcasm. I truly believe that if I do not attain a level of cast-iron success in the next few years, it will never happen at all.

Sometime soon, this coastal migration will live up to its promises. I can feel it. This winter, I've survived only on my pretenses. And although I'm often disgusted the sheer solitude and phoniness of
New York's social climate, it is freedom... even if it's a kind so terrifying that I turn my back on it. It's safer that way, afterall.

"To face ourselves. That's the hard thing. The imagination. That's God's gift to make the act of self-examination bearable."
- John Guare, Six Degrees of Separation